A classy song by Frank Sinatra, and a quiet short moment where the night is still and society is silent.
I reckon that hour would be.. let's say 2AM-4AM? You know when the world is spinning so fast, and when you're so caught up with your assignments and conversations with your fellow mates, you just pay less attention to the details. This period of time is when i think it's just you and yourself, and the surroundings.
I looked outside the window, the brightest things were the lampposts, but everything seem rested. The only things moving were the late night cars. And the sense of this aloneness came into me. I guess if you were reading my previous posts, i like these moments the most. But until i heard Frankie's song, i just had no idea what to call these moments until now.
This moment is where you'd probably be like Frankie, missing the girl you love the most, appreciate what you never really appreciated, realize what you never realized etc. Just try to savour the moment before your lids shut and you enter into deep slumber.
Just look outside and gaze upon this earth, see what life has led you to, see what you have missed.
Happy belated Mooncake Festival!
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
My Idealogy of FFK
I have achieved a beyond legendary status of FFK-ing more than 20 humans in my life. The name even sounds fancy, FFK. Now i think it's about time i explain why do i do that so often, and i want to know what's so unforgivable about that?
FFK means you agree to go somewhere to meet someone or a group but you didn't go (info for dummies).
Okay firstly my principle is don't FFK anyone who is out there alone/by himself. (although i've committed that minor sin before) It's just wrong if you promise to meet somebody but never turn up in the end. That's just pretty selfish, (sigh i know!) leaving that person all alone there spinning his handphone as if he's playing spin the bottle with one participant. Two, your friendship with that person -30 at minimum. It's a bad move if you promise someone and don't turn up, rather just say no!
Now about me ffk-ing all the time, i've got to say my emotions are always involved. I mean sometimes, you're so pumped up for something, then the next minute you just feel like slouching at home! Especially unimportant things like.. dinner or cybercafe. It's kinda like when you're looking forward for a TV show and then before that you watch ICarly and you just wanna watch ICarly the whole night. So that's very human of me, and i admit it's a stupid reason.
And i mostly ffk only when it comes to groups. Like people of 3 and above. And i don't understand why people get so furious when you don't turn up, i mean alright you say you're gonna come you better come, but it doesn't hurt much right... (i think), UNLESS you're talking about a futsal game where your team is lacking a player.
But then again i understand some people wouldn't feel as comfortable if im not around, i mean not me, i mean your best friend or someone you're closest with in the group.
But here's my reason why FFK in a group is alright : firstly, 4-1=3. Means there's still 2 people to talk, 1 person to listen or vice versa. Anyway, 3 people is enough to break the ice. So i don't think my absense would bring much hurt.
Secondly, the target still can be achieved without me! Watching football, mamak sessions, study sessions, people still are able to do what they're supposed to do, so then again i strongly ENFORCE the FREEDOM OF FFK.
Well of course i don't encourage it lah, and it's not a good habit, but i think FFK is really a bit overrated sometimes, i mean people react quite furiously over it sometimes, i've seen it on me before!
I apologize if i'm just a darn bad FFK-ing noob la :(
FFK means you agree to go somewhere to meet someone or a group but you didn't go (info for dummies).
Okay firstly my principle is don't FFK anyone who is out there alone/by himself. (although i've committed that minor sin before) It's just wrong if you promise to meet somebody but never turn up in the end. That's just pretty selfish, (sigh i know!) leaving that person all alone there spinning his handphone as if he's playing spin the bottle with one participant. Two, your friendship with that person -30 at minimum. It's a bad move if you promise someone and don't turn up, rather just say no!
Now about me ffk-ing all the time, i've got to say my emotions are always involved. I mean sometimes, you're so pumped up for something, then the next minute you just feel like slouching at home! Especially unimportant things like.. dinner or cybercafe. It's kinda like when you're looking forward for a TV show and then before that you watch ICarly and you just wanna watch ICarly the whole night. So that's very human of me, and i admit it's a stupid reason.
And i mostly ffk only when it comes to groups. Like people of 3 and above. And i don't understand why people get so furious when you don't turn up, i mean alright you say you're gonna come you better come, but it doesn't hurt much right... (i think), UNLESS you're talking about a futsal game where your team is lacking a player.
But then again i understand some people wouldn't feel as comfortable if im not around, i mean not me, i mean your best friend or someone you're closest with in the group.
But here's my reason why FFK in a group is alright : firstly, 4-1=3. Means there's still 2 people to talk, 1 person to listen or vice versa. Anyway, 3 people is enough to break the ice. So i don't think my absense would bring much hurt.
Secondly, the target still can be achieved without me! Watching football, mamak sessions, study sessions, people still are able to do what they're supposed to do, so then again i strongly ENFORCE the FREEDOM OF FFK.
Well of course i don't encourage it lah, and it's not a good habit, but i think FFK is really a bit overrated sometimes, i mean people react quite furiously over it sometimes, i've seen it on me before!
I apologize if i'm just a darn bad FFK-ing noob la :(
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Pondering Swing
Thanks to my brilliant social network these days (which only involves talking to my brother), i went down the mart to buy a Shandy and sat on the playground's swing, looking around as if the playground is the most interesting venue.
And then i saw a baby girl with her nanny, and she didn't appreciate my toast of Shandy.
Maybe to that little girl, life is all about satisfying what she wants - mainly fun and education. And when she grows up more consideration comes to mind. But i saw this toilet lady, the one collecting 20 cents/entry. What's life to and for her? Is there some sort of hope or vision? Or is she even content with collecting 20 cents her entire life? I really don't know la, but if i were her, sitting in my booth returning change to people until my shift is over.. man i would take my home-made rifle and start blasting.
Back to the lady, im just thinking, in my role, how can i actually help her? Talk to her? It may be a 5 minutes conversation of care and concern, but it'll last only 5 minutes and she'll keep it in her memory for as long as she remembers. And living in past events plainly sucks. I reminisced my past almost everyday, and knowing i'll never have that same moments just really sucks down under.
Somehow life was more energetic and free last time, is dullness and routines necessary being a young adult? Things weren't as true or real as before. Things now are just so surreal, to the point where i don't even know if im actually feeling true joy or not.
Yes i need prayer, but im just a little disillusioned and have become more selfish thinking all about me again.
And then i saw a baby girl with her nanny, and she didn't appreciate my toast of Shandy.
Maybe to that little girl, life is all about satisfying what she wants - mainly fun and education. And when she grows up more consideration comes to mind. But i saw this toilet lady, the one collecting 20 cents/entry. What's life to and for her? Is there some sort of hope or vision? Or is she even content with collecting 20 cents her entire life? I really don't know la, but if i were her, sitting in my booth returning change to people until my shift is over.. man i would take my home-made rifle and start blasting.
Back to the lady, im just thinking, in my role, how can i actually help her? Talk to her? It may be a 5 minutes conversation of care and concern, but it'll last only 5 minutes and she'll keep it in her memory for as long as she remembers. And living in past events plainly sucks. I reminisced my past almost everyday, and knowing i'll never have that same moments just really sucks down under.
Somehow life was more energetic and free last time, is dullness and routines necessary being a young adult? Things weren't as true or real as before. Things now are just so surreal, to the point where i don't even know if im actually feeling true joy or not.
Yes i need prayer, but im just a little disillusioned and have become more selfish thinking all about me again.
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